What Can I say? One is inspired when, happy? sad?
OK, I only write when I am sad, why depression is the fuel, I kinda hate it.
Used to have a blog but I couldnt write there, it feels cheating of entering one entry then ages apart, another one, just coz I couldnt write on other social media like Fazebook. What a joke! yea? I am old enough not wanting anyone to know I am depressed but I am childish enough to do it here, talking about silly.
Starting a frezhhh. Yeah. Break up. Story. Dragon. 4 years.
Mentally, I was trying to put good things on the left side, bad things on the right.
I can tell you the right side of it is filled with many things from selfish to coward....yet.
The left side of it has huge 4 letter word. yes u guess it right. LOVE
that 4 letter word, fuck it. stupidity.
Was dying for LOVE. Found it. So what's next.
All I could think is - wow, yeah I am gonna read as nowadays my language skills sucks
yes, Love makes one language skills sucks
we lose the ability to have full vocabulary
usually if you are in the couplehood whereby you argue alot
you would know alotta motherfucker vocab
or if u r in non arguement relationship
you would very much well-versed with just mundane day to day vocab
why, we just cant express ourselves
when we do we ge accused
not for me, for him too
sucks, eh!?
maybe it's not LOVE
Second, good thing may turn up would be I could go back to my fairy tale land
but U know what
I am not sure after this
I still can
I sometimes miss fairy tale
believing one day the HE will show up
I thought he was the HE
actually He was, is, will be but
He's now gone
broken. yes.
sad yes.
depressed, oh very YES.
OK, I only write when I am sad, why depression is the fuel, I kinda hate it.
Used to have a blog but I couldnt write there, it feels cheating of entering one entry then ages apart, another one, just coz I couldnt write on other social media like Fazebook. What a joke! yea? I am old enough not wanting anyone to know I am depressed but I am childish enough to do it here, talking about silly.
Starting a frezhhh. Yeah. Break up. Story. Dragon. 4 years.
Mentally, I was trying to put good things on the left side, bad things on the right.
I can tell you the right side of it is filled with many things from selfish to coward....yet.
The left side of it has huge 4 letter word. yes u guess it right. LOVE
that 4 letter word, fuck it. stupidity.
Was dying for LOVE. Found it. So what's next.
All I could think is - wow, yeah I am gonna read as nowadays my language skills sucks
yes, Love makes one language skills sucks
we lose the ability to have full vocabulary
usually if you are in the couplehood whereby you argue alot
you would know alotta motherfucker vocab
or if u r in non arguement relationship
you would very much well-versed with just mundane day to day vocab
why, we just cant express ourselves
when we do we ge accused
not for me, for him too
sucks, eh!?
maybe it's not LOVE
Second, good thing may turn up would be I could go back to my fairy tale land
but U know what
I am not sure after this
I still can
I sometimes miss fairy tale
believing one day the HE will show up
I thought he was the HE
actually He was, is, will be but
He's now gone
broken. yes.
sad yes.
depressed, oh very YES.
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